My Journal

I have to keep a journal, to write whatever comes to mind, to draw, to doodle-Doodle? This means I can write anything without paying attention-write from my heart, not my head. I can be me , discover me, enjoy me. Yeah, have fun with myself, my reality. That's who I am. I am laughter,joy,peace,love and one with the universe.

I keep feeling this tingling sensation on my head. A lump settles on my throat and I swallow my saliva. My heart feels heavy as if something just dropped in there. Something is being released from my heart, up my throat, head,arms and I feel like I want to say something but it's not coming out. Like I remember when my brother-in-law was dying, he wanted to say something but could not. He died with the words inside him.

But I'm not going to die with my words inside me. I'm going to say them, express them and let the world know who I am and why I am here. I'm writing a BOOK!